I was thrilled reading Prophet Elijah's chat with God (1 Kings 19) and wondered at the level of intimacy I observed. Can I get that close? Looking at the passage again, I discovered that Elijah was concerned with seeing God's law obeyed in Israel. There was nothing personal or material in the complaint he lodged with God. Then I saw God list out issues he wanted Elijah handle before coming home. Just like a foreman in a construction site distributing duties at the start of day's work.
I had a second look at myself! I always go to God with a long shopping list that expands by the hour. In and out of God's presence, it's me first, me last, me in between. What a patient Father, he is! But I'm saved to work together with him (2 Cor 6:1). I'm saved to live for Jesus Christ (2 Cor 5:15). Yet I see God so great and powerful, he has no needs. Maybe Moses shared the same thought until the Burning Bush experience. Maybe Isaiah shared the same thought until he heard God cry out for whom to send on a mission (Isaiah 6). I think it's a matter of ignorance of spiritual secrets of relating with God.
Maybe I've to grow up out of playing Father Christmas with God. We actually beat ourselves to it. When we take up the kingdoms burden, God takes over our concerns, leaving us with peace of mind, and the joy that one is doing his will (Mat 11:29-30)